I knew it would happen. I didn’t know when or where but it wasn’t unexpected. This morning was the when and lying in my bed was the where. My eyes started leaking before I had even opened them. My heart had been filling up for the last five days and I hadn’t been able to process its contents. I had been an empty bucket, catching sadness and reaction and tears and despair. Filling up, drip by drip by dam burst! And today I overflowed. My heart was full and my sadness flowed down my cheeks and onto my pillow and made a little room in my heart and mind for processing. So this morning I will not stop the tears. They are silent and I am able to function in their company. I welcome them. They will accompany me and cleanse me. Later, I will head to the sea to sit and write about feeling all the feels ….